Alhamdulillah, for everything.
As I turn 35 years old today, I am reflecting on what our religion calls upon us to both do and be; that it is a commendable act to take stock of our days, so that we might gain a heart of wisdom.
Alhamdulillah – for the gift of life. I praise You Allah, for how You have directed my steps. And while my sins and mistakes and foibles were multitudinous, I do thank you for how You have led me these 35 years.
Alhamdulillah – for my mother and father Allahyarham Mohd Amin Ramly & Radziah Mohd Said. Please forgive them and place them among your righteous servants. Ours wasn’t always a perfect family, but I praise You that all four of us have come to know, serve and love them. Much was good. Some was not. But they were faithful and patient throughout it all and we are blessed beyond what we deserve. Thank you.
Alhamdulillah – for blessing me with the opportunity to be with great teachers, ulama’ and good people among friends.
Alhamdulillah – for blessing me with my wife, Fara Suzeera Abdul Rashid and children, Ammar Luqman, Khadeeja Nasyrah & Raihana Nasyrah; my siblings, Azmil Mohd Amin, Muhammad Husni Mohd Amin, Hasyimah Mohd Amin, my circle of cousins and all the extended family members. By Your grace and love, they have brought me more meaning and peaceful life than I had ever thought possible. I know I am far from deserving them, but I thank you for each one of them. I know I am a better man for having each of them in my life. Alhamdulillah. When I reflect upon and remember my weaknesses, indolence, etc., I become stunned in admiration that You have brought me so very far from where I once was. I have purpose, identity, meaning, self-discipline, goals, focus, a calling larger than myself, opportunities, etc., all through Your love and guidance. Alhamdulillah.
My life, my family, my calling as a Muslim lawyer and activist, and all the rest of Your abundant blessings, give me such a reason to get up in the dawn of every day, that I just can’t believe its real. Alhamdulillah. Thank you for pouring out Your amazing love and grace on me, one who am so undeserving. As in the prayers of your servant, Uwais Al-Qarni:
“O Allah, You created me when I was not worthy of mention; And You provided for me when I had nothing; And I wronged my soul and sinned, and I confess my guilt. If You forgive me, that will in no way diminish Your sovereignty; And if You punish me, that will in no way augment Your authority. You can find others to punish besides me, But I can find no one to forgive me but You. Truly, You are the most merciful of those who show mercy” (Uwais Al-Qarni [d.37 H – 657 CE]).
O Allah, I have no knowledge on how many more years You will give me, but I do pray that You will enable me to serve You every single second of them Please help me do more for You, than I have ever done in the past. Help me Allah, to be more intentional, consistent, motivated, focused, etc., in all I do. Help me prioritize what is most important and significant and not chase after things that aren’t pleasing to You. Please direct my steps, shower me with Your blessings, give me greater guidance. Empower me to be consistent in following the examples set by your beloved Prophet Muhammad (sallalllahu alayhi wassalam); so that I may honor and please You with my life, and bear as much good and lasting fruit as I can among my later blossoms.
Alhamdulillah, for everything.
Azril Mohd Amin, 30th April 2010